Nov. 1, 2016

Why so positive?

A friend recently asked me, “with everything you have gone through and are going through, how can you always be so positive?”  To be completely honest, I’m not always positive.  I have my days where I’m angry, tired, and ready to give up.  However, I completely believe that there is a reason for everything. 

The past three years have been incredibly humbling.  I learned the hard way that nothing in life is easy.  Things will not just come to you because you want it or feel that you deserve it.  You must work hard to get it.  Believing that you are better than others or are invincible may very well be your downfall.  While having pride in yourself is a good thing, taking it too far will knock you on your butt.  Making snap judgements about others and exhibiting them may be the step towards the end of that person’s life.  You never know what people are going through.  You never know if they are teetering on that thin line between death and life.  You could be the person that stops someone from jumping off the cliff.

So why do I do my best to be positive?  I know what it’s like to be alone, bullied, put down, beaten, taught to believe that I will never be anything good, and pushed to end my life.  Also, I know what it's like to wish for death because I'm sick and suffering.  No one with a good heart deserves any of that.  I know that I have a good heart.  I want to be that person that exhausts herself to make someone else smile for a few seconds.  I want to be that person that lifts others up.  I want to be that person whose hand reaches out and pulls someone else away from the edge of the cliff.  I have been blessed with so much love and I want to share it.

Our world is filled with so much pain, suffering, ugliness, hate, and darkness.  I want to be a part of the light and love that makes everything better, to just lighten someone’s world even just for a few seconds.  I hope this inspires others to do the same.

Until later…be safe and be kind to one another.